Researching the internet helped me understand that the way I'm feeling is not something out of the ordinary for people with Breast Cancer. Cancer-related fatigue (CRF - sometimes simply called "cancer fatigue") is one of the most common side effects of Cancer and its treatments. It is often described as "paralyzing." Usually, it comes on suddenly, does not result from activity or exertion, and is not relieved by rest or sleep. It may not end - even when treatment is complete.
My daughter said it's because my body is working hard to fight those nasty little Cancer cells that are having a field day inside of me. I never thought of it that way, but I guess she's right. I do know that I don't like feeling this way but I'm going to do my best to push through it.
Being exhausted is not a laughing matter but this old poem makes me laugh every time I read it. It surely describes how I feel right now...my get up and go got up and went.
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Old age is golden, or so I’ve heard said,
But sometimes I wonder, as I crawl into bed,
With my ears in a drawer, my teeth in a cup,
My eyes on the table until I wake up.
As sleep dims my vision, I say to myself:
Is there anything else I should lay on the shelf?
But, though nations are warring, and Congress is vexed,
We’ll still stick around to see what happens next!
- How do I know my youth is all spent?
My get-up-and-go has got up and went!
But, in spite of it all, I’m able to grin
And think of the places my getup has been!
I could kick up my heels right over my head.
When I was older my slippers were blue,
But still I could dance the whole night through.
Now I am older, my slippers are black.
I huff to the store and puff my way back.
But never you laugh; I don’t mind at all:
I’d rather be huffing than not puff at all!
- How do I know my youth is all spent?
My get-up-and-go has got up and went!
But, in spite of it all, I’m able to grin
And think of the places my getup has been!
Open the paper, and read the Obits.
If I’m not there, I know I’m not dead,
So I eat a good breakfast and go back to bed!
- How do I know my youth is all spent?
My get-up-and-go has got up and went!
But, in spite of it all, I’m able to grin
And think of the places my getup has been!
Praying for an added measure of strength today!!
ReplyDeleteI hate to tell you this, but it gets worse as you do chemo. I have one terrible week after chemo, then one better week, then one pretty darn good week. You are very stressed too. This cancer thing is just something we have to get through, remember 'it came to pass'. We may not be quite the same as we before we started but we'll be better and stronger, maybe different.
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